will anyone notice you? 37/6/2
Date: 15/7/2025 DD/MM/YYYY
Writing some lore for myself to read in the future.
15th July, 2025
Tuesday
Evening
Dear Diary,
The sun was out today, it would be a good day. I thought I was going to enjoy today. I want to say sorry to my Mother. I wasn't thinking again.
Day 35, Week 6. 15th July, Tuesday.
It was another day. When will I learn. I never learnt.
Again.
I wasn't able to think. No matter what I do, it seems like my head is allergic to thoughts. What I see, what I hear. I am no longer alert. That irritates me.
For now. (Hopefully)
2024, I feel the same way I do now; Alone and isolated. Though only now I know I really am socially isolated from people outside my family (peers) . Took me 3 years to realize that, yet it's no surprise; I was the one deliberately isolating myself as a way to cope with my irrational need for control in an environment against me.
Solution.
Writing seems to be the way now, to get my thoughts back on track. Still need to solve the "social" problem. I don't think I will ever at this point.