Struggling with Violent Intrusive Thoughts /j
At a certain period of time- around 2022 to 2023.
A time period of around 2-3 years, I struggled with violent thoughts.
It was only between 2022 to 2023 the thoughts became mildly intrusive to the point of an adrenaline rush every time I had these thoughts.
Before all this, my thoughts ranged from violent fantasies of my classmates getting murdered by me to planning in a fictional world where I was strong enough to stab my parents while they're sleeping in a way I wouldn't be immediately stopped by my victim whom I was stabbing.
These thoughts would remain fictional and a figment of my horrific imagination of everyone I ever knew dead in my hands; Well it's not really that horrific. I'm sure anyone you know probably had fantasies of stabbing someone brutally with a knife until they bled out and you were just watching them until their body turned limp and lifeless, I mean it's not only stabbing or murdering, just kicking or punching someone would a violent fantasy too.
I wished reality lined up with the horror films you'd watch where the person bleeds out a pool of delicious blood after the character had stabbed the knife through their flesh; Well turns out not all knives are sharp.
The point is, don't do what the thoughts tell you, it won't line up. Although they were gone pretty soon. Also you will get invalidated by your own lawyer just because well- I won't get in depth about it.